Hello there. (;
So.. school was.... hmmm. okay. not that bad.
receive prize for fikir-fikir. then lessons. school ended at 1245.
at 115 went to class to complete my maths assignment corrections. stayed back in sch aft that.
tbh i miss slacking at 129.
you know like ramai2 lepak. haha. yeah but now... tsktsk.
i dont really slack that much anym. now , i stayback in sch. haha. hf they all also stay back in sch already. tnye satu2 tk lepak. heran2 , klaw dulu lepas skolah teros gi 129.
we joke, we laugh , we fight , we argue . tsktsk. haha. rindu , rindu.
Whether i've moved on or not?
maybe , maybe not. I'm unsure myself. :/
well, time will tell tho. :) I'll always remind myself , "we're friends and im with someone else now."
Normally after school , the first thing i would say to my friends when we reached the canteen is ,"where is he?" "he went home alr. :( " or wtv shit lah eh.
but today ... i didnt and that's a good thing right?
Maybe those feelings is fading just because i changed my mindset and i tell myself that now i only see him as a friend. yes.we're friends. nothing more , nothing less. (;
Those memories we had, i'll always remember.
On the other hand , i gotta knock in some sense into myself. Who left who? Who made the effort? Who was at fault? Why didnt we last ? Why when im with you im always sick and tired ? Sick and tired of what? Why .... hais.
52 days with you ... It may be a short period but we went thru a lot.
those happy moments slowly turned to misunderstandings , miscommunication to arguments and fights. Even about this .. I fought with my bestfriend. Pathetic much ? Too late for regrets tho. After a few days of the 'separation' then i got back with my bestfriend. We talked things out. I cried. I knew it all . I just couldnt voice it out. I felt like arguing again tbh but i thought back it wouldnt make a difference and since he didnt want me back but that was what i thought.
It was really a hard time for me. To be frank , i never felt that hurt before. I remember i saw 'them' playing badminton at the court infront of my block , i told Hanidah that I dont really feel anything anymore.I just feel numb cos i got used to the pain. Ohyeah . Thank you for being there for me whoever lah that was there for me, syg you all. <3
Nevertheless, i wanna thank him for leaving me. I learnt a lot being with him during those 52 days. He wanted to see me happy with someone else cos he knows i wasnt happy being with him but the thing was i didnt love that guy but him. When i thought everything would turn out fine, it turn out to be worse. `Le sigh~ This always happens to me. well, most of the time. ;/
Feelings fade , people change.
Now , i met someone new. Thanks to him. Well, at least I'm happier. No more tears falling from my eyes but still , time will tell. (; I dont blog about my past with him just for fun or just because i feel like it. I blog this to let it all out. I don't want history to repeat itself. :(
Because of my past , i dont really know how to express... I act like i dont care but i actually do.
After what ive been thru ... I just wnna say , I aint stupid. I may be a lil' naive(okay maybe a whole lot)but you can fool me once not twice. (;
I realise somethings thse few days. I talked it to Farah, Hanidah and Sharifah.
you all pon prasan jugak kan? (: let's just see , WLWF okay. Bile aku prangai , aku prangai hbs k. you can ask my friends. (;
SHOUTOUT TO THIS CUTE BOY , MUHD IRFAN ISKANDAR! AHAHAHAHAHA.
HE WAS READING MY BLOG AND YANG SUKA CHAT MEREPEK2 KATA KETI DIER BAU WANGI. HAHAHAHHAA.
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